let's talk...ta-ta's

...i've decided to get some. i've secretly thought about it for years, but i never had the guts to go ahead && just do it. there were a lot of random reasons holding me back; complications, social stigma, the end result, etc.. i wasn't originally going to tell anyone about this, but it's going to be an obvious change, so i figure why not open up and be honest about my experience. maybe i can help some of y'all... :). so while my "breast lust"(haha) had been ongoing since highschool i'd kept it to myself and went with denial. then one night i had a 'monumental' conversation with a guy. a douche bag-ish guy, yes, but he said something in his advocacy of me getting implants that just 'stuck'. it was 2am, i was sitting in my car in the parking lot of my apartment complex and we were just BSing and i confessed my secret wish. part of me wanted him to say, "oh anna, you're beautiful, boobs are no big deal", but instead he told the truth and it went something like this..."that's the 'thing' now && it would help you. you only live once && you only get one body, so you might aswell be as happy as you can be." the second part stuck, when he said "you only live once && you only get one body, so you might aswell be as happy as you can be." that's my motto with this experience. i decided i had nothing better to do for fall break && to go ahead && find a doctor. knowing my friends experiences with cosmetic surgery i know that they usually get you in pretty quick if there's an opening, so i found a doctor that had 20 years of experience(board certified && a member of several different associations) && scheduled a consultation for this past Monday. my parents had no clue && i'm in college, so i'm not exactly swimming in cash. i wasn't sure how i was going to make it work, but i knew i would. i went home for the weekend on Saturday and during the hour and a half drive up the emptiest interstate ever i called my mom and told her about the appointment. she took it...a lot better than i thought. i honestly thought she'd say no way(any surgery is serious and she's very protective), but surprisingly...she understood. we talked it out && got in touch with my daddy and told him the plan. hardest thing i've ever done. i come from a conservative family. i've never heard my daddy say the word 'sex', no one told me where babies came from, and i've never seen anyone in any part of my family kiss...unless it was a peck on the cheek of a 5 year old. we're just not open people like that. i expected a few reactions from my conservative Army daddy. a loud, "aw HELL NAW!" haha, or just a sarcastic brush off. but i came at him rationally(really hard for me btw) && expressed how much it would help my confidence && how much happier i'd be && to my complete SHOCK he understood. i'm honestly touched by my parents understanding because superficial anything isn't really their cup of tea(they've been trying to break my makeup addiction for ohhh 6 years now?). after 31 years of military service(and still goin...) that stuffs not on the forefront of his mind && my Polish mother is just so beautiful i felt like they couldn't relate. so, i felt blessed by their understanding and willing to help. Monday i went to the consultation which we will now refer to as the longest hour + of my life. My doctor was VERY sraightforward and to the point. We went over the different types of implants; saline and silicone. I'm going with saline(safer). We went over different ways to put the implant in; armpit, under the crease, or nipple. I decided to go under the crease because the incision would only be 3cm and unnoticiable, but going under the armpit would cause more scarring after having to get then redone years down the road, etc, and nipple? well...have you seen tara reid? then we talked profile; you can get high, medium, or low. i wanted high...bad. we also discussed size...the least. ultimately becase everyone in the office pretty much said no one's opinion counts...it's all about how you feel. when trying on sizes i was alone...so it was just me and my opinions. originally talking to friends i thought about 325ccs or 350ccs. a good friend of mine got 325 ccs and they look amazing, but our builds are very different. i have a swimmers body...broad shoulders...muscular back...and i don't swim?? the first size my eyes went to were the 400ccs and when i tried them on i really liked the look, then i tried the 425ccs && i wasn't so sure...maybe it was just the way i placed them in? you can't determine future "bra size" by the CCs apparently so i wish i knew what i'd be. originally i wanted to be a full C, but after hearing all my friends say that wish they would have gone bigger I'd really like to be a small D, I think that would suit my frame well. i'm currently a 32B, it'd be a nice jump. So that's the beginning of my new adventure. I really hope this post and the next few on my surgery help some of y'all out there...whether it's encouraging or discouraging...informative...or just a lil entertaining!

horrible picture of me(sorry, but i usually padded my bikinis so this is my only truly accurate one) on my 22nd BDay(hence the teeny tiara)...it was about 3am and we thought the hot tub was a great way to end a night at the EpiCentre....that's the BEFORE!
Height: 5'7"
Weight: 117
Measurements: 32B-23-33

Pre-OP: October 5th
Operation: October 9th!

Don't forgt to FOLLOW! xO ♥

Ohhhh the weekend!

I'm a weekend junkie. I live for NO class && getting all dressed up to go out...especially if it's outta town! I just recently transferred schools && I miss home SO much. Not necessarily home itself, I'm from a small town(what fun is that??), but home is VERY close to the fabulous city of Charlotte. Those of you not from the Carolinas probably wouldn't use that word to describe Charlotte if you haven't been there, but it's one of the CLEANEST cities in the US, one of the few cities that's growing, one of the top 5 cities for singles, great designer shopping, home of the CAROLiNA PANTHERS, and as a seasoned go-er out-er(haha) I really think it's got a better nightlife than ATL(Atlanta's kinda spread out, but in CLT everything's REALLY close together...the best clubs are in the same spot-- the Epicentre!) What more could you want? Needless to say, I was elated when I saw the Charlotte skyline from 77.
Felt like home.... I sound so strange I know, but I'm trying my hardest to like this new city...it's...kinda fun? I guess I've been spoiled! Here are a few 'outfit of the night' pics....
&& NO I'm not wearing white after Labor Day! It's all OFF-white. Ha.

y'all, I was concentrating....

sideview of the dress.....


the cab driver had to make a stop, so i had to take a pic...haha

FiNALLY at the EpiCentre....

Yes, yes...I'm animal print obsessed!

blonde brilliance in the bathroom

So my new apartment is pretty big...in the common areas...bedroom && bathroom? Not so much. I'm used to having a 'vanity' where I keep EVERYTHING, but every inch of my bedroom is packed && the area around my sink can hold a can of hairspray and a toothbrush (exagerrating? only a tad). So I had to get one of those tall bathroom...space saver...things? Problem is, I had to put it together, all by myself(because I HATE asking for help). I didn't even know they made different types of screws & screwdrivers && I have NO idea why in 2009 things don't just come pre-made?? But, after major insomnia I got this thing all put together at 4am a couple nights ago. Almost all put together....except for the front of the shelves where they curve and you have to fit a screw through a straight pole into a curve(UM, is there a reason the shelves curve...as if they couldn't just keep everything streamlined and easy?! who comes up with this stuff.....). I tried and tried and chipped every nail, but like we learned at the ripe old age of 3 you can't fit a square into a circle && this was the issue. So, instead of chucking the whole thing I had the brilliant idea to combine function && pink. Instead of screwing the straight side into a curve(that doesn't work...unless you've got a torch...and I totally can't find mine!)...I tied the curved shelf to the straight side with hot pink ribbon...&& I gotta say you'd never know I had no idea what I was doing. :)

When I'm frustrated(like, uh today) I do MAD cleaning, so I took the pic after taking everything off to reorganize, but it's been holding everything for a good 3 days now, so I call it a Success!

my first blog on my least favorite holiday && an outfit of the 'night'!

Hey y'all! So after months of being a beauty/fashion blog lurker...I decided to join in. :) Since I'm obsessed as they get. What better day to start my blog than Labor Day. Why Labor Day? Because I cringe whenever I hear the phrase..."no white after Labor Day"...just rub it in. I think people are stricter about this down South && that makes no sense to me because Summer can stick around all the way to October here! I actually remember a 75 degree Christmas in '03? I know the rule applies mostly to shoes(and pants and bags....). But I hate fashion rules. ESPECIALLY this one. I think it all comes from the movie 'Serial Mom'...which I saw at age 7? So that's probably why I have an issue with it...I was traumatized. Haha, Saturday night I was trying to pick out an outfit and my friend had to say..."it's the last night to wear white..."(I have an 8am test tomorrow, so I won't be out celebrating tonight, ha). I didn't reach for the white pumps or white skinny jeans, but below's a pic because I LOVE outfit of the day/night posts...I'd put up todays, but I'm about to go to the gym && that's not a very good first impression! Thanks for stopping by!

In case you're wondering...expect a lot more of me in white to come(just not in the form of shoes...or a bag...til Easter)...it's hot down here y'all!